2009-11-30

what a difference a year makes... the latter half of last year, i was a mess with the whole break-up process with dave. picking up the pieces, wondering how to do or think about a lot of things a.d. (after dave), etc.

now, i've been with b for the past (almost) year and it's been incredible. so many fun trekking and backpacking trips, exploring places off the beaten path. we communicate well 95% of the time, and in that 5% we quickly discuss our frustration/how differently we perceived what the other said, and reconcile quickly. the physical chemistry is undeniably there, and i look forward to seeing him (like giddy-excited).

he makes me a better person, always challenging my physical capabilities with rock climbing or whatnot, and above all challenging my emotional/mental capabilities... with learning how to trust. to not worry or be paranoid that he'll hurt me or do things with malicious intent. he builds me up, never puts me down, and takes an interest in my life, wants to meet my loved ones, and understands my goals. which, i know - sounds like they should be givens. but when you haven't had that for six years, have conditioned yourself the past six years that everything really was your fault (when it hardly was) - it's pretty damn amazing to find.

he's intelligent with his macguyver ways and philosophical thoughts, hilarious with his slapstick comedy or witty remarks, ambitious with his mountaineering goals, athletic with his rock climbing and mountain biking activities, and so incredibly caring and genuine when he worries if i stress about work or get upset if we have a fight.

and he's so incredibly cute :) and i'll say it - we're so incredibly cute as a couple ;)

i am lucky.

regress - progress